After the death of X, I have been thinking about God/Afterlife
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. Ecclesiastes 3:11
No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him. And I will raise him up on the last day. John 6:44
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7
Why would he want a relationship?
Example
You can not give the Almighty God anything by work. He definitely doesn’t need a fleshly butler.
Why am I then experiencing this?
Without this experience, you would not search for God.
Example
The theif on the cross was a Criminal and lived his life to the fullest. On the cross, he comes into contact with death and turns to Jesus. He is hanging on the cross, and nothing worldly can offer him anything anymore and his heart wants Jesus.
And he said, "Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom." Luke 23:42
Jesus answered him, "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God." John 3:3
Consequently, he is able to save to the uttermost those who draw near to God through him, since he always lives to make intercession for them. Hebrews 7:25
Example
He is waiting at your door and knocking. But you are waiting for Him in your living room with headphones on, expecting Him to come in. You just open the door silently and look at Him passively, and He asks, “So, may I come in now?” It is a constant invitation toward the Lord, where you allow Him to enter with your words and ask Him to live within you.
Prayer
Jesus, I invite you into my life. Jesus, show yourself to me in my life. Reveal yourself to me. I want to get to know you.